Previous/Next December 31, 2003 - 2:26 am I choseSo, after having 3 people tell me guy should pay it all, not just the half I was thinking of asking for, and 2 of those ppl being guys who I'm not particularly good friends with, and who would have no reason to be in my favor unfairly, I sent the boy the following email. Hi. How are you? I'm kinda lousy, cos the doc's visit and the morning after pill was $85, and left me feeling lousy and sick. And I only had $40, and that $40 was for my bills that are due in the next 2 weeks, which I now have no way to pay, cos, just more proof the universe hates me, my tutoring for the past 2 weeks and this week got canceled, which means I have $150 less than I should have had. And I will get charged huge late fees if I don't pay my bills on time, and I also still owe the doctor $45 on top of my regular bills. So, since the fact that I had to go to the doc, and needed the morning after pill was at least as much your doing as mine, I need you to give me at least half of what the doctor's bill was, which would be $42. I still feel weird asking him for money, but, everything I said in the email is true. I've got no possible way to pay off the doctor's bill other than him contributing, and I don't know how the hell I'm going to pay the bills left from December that have already arrived, and are going to arrive in the next 2 weeks. Mood= still conflictedVoices in my head are singing= Current Obsession= will he do the decent thing or not? December 30, 2003 - 8:24 pm QuestionShould I ask boi for money, since I couldn't afford to pay the whole bill, and now owe planned parenthood $44? (I called, and it's $44 I owe, not $24.) I kinda want to, cos, it's not fair I should have to pay the whole damn thing, but at the same time, I kinda don't wanna make it an issue, since the sex was essentially my idea. But then again, he was the one who didn't realize that condoms don't stay on soft dicks. I'm conflicted. Is the reason I don't want to ask cos I somehow think women shouldn't make a nuisance of themselves? That doesn't seem like me, but, if it was anyone else in this situ, behaving like I am, that's the reason I'd give for their actions. PLEASE, leave a comment or a note, and let me know! Mood= conflictedVoices in my head are singing= Current Obsession= should I ask or not? December 30, 2003 - 10:23 am whimperAll my MP3s. Gone. I was resizing the partition the other day. And my computer froze. And the data was supposed to be recoverable, but windows deleted and then rebuilt the master file table, so now nothing is right, and most of it isn't even actual songs with the wrong file names, most of it is now bits and pieces of multiple songs, stuck together as one, with the wrong file name. Whimper. Mood= surprisingly not too upsetVoices in my head are singing= Current Obsession= who can I borrow CDs from? December 29, 2003 - 3:39 pm Got itWell, got 'Plan B emergency contraceptive'. Took both pills, cos apparently there's new data that says taking both pills at the same time is just as good as taking one and then the other 12 hours later. And the doc said to take both. So, pray I bleed soon. I don't care what goddesses, gods, or beings you pray to, just pray for me. And, dear goddess it was expensive! Last time, in 2000, it was roughly $80, and that got me the morning after pill, and 3 months worth of birth control. This time, $64, and I got the morning after pill. I still owe Planned Parenthood $24, cos I only had $40. But, I'm freaked out. My body has been WEIRD the past 24 hours. *chants* I will NOT get pregnant, I will NOT get pregnant. Mood= relieved and worried at the same time.Voices in my head are singing= Current Obsession= December 29, 2003 - 7:37 am PeaceA very interesting website, which I found for fairly obvious reasons if you read the entry preceeding this one. Waiting for it to be 9am, so I can call the clinic, and find out if I can get a prescription for the morning after pill called into the pharmacy up the street. No worries on the paying, cos it turns out there's about $60 in bus and taxi fare on the dining room table, I've got $20 in my wallet, and $15 in the bank. So I can pay for my 'what kind of idiot doesn't know you are supposed to pull out before your cock gets soft, cos condoms fall off soft cocks' pills. Which has given me an enormous sense of peace. Cos, like so many of the women who submitted their stories to that site, I know I don't want a child. I'd be a horrible mother, and I'd likely kill myself and or the kid. Mood= calmVoices in my head are singing= Harvey Dange-Flagpolesitta Current Obsession= December 28, 2003 - 8:04 pm just kill me nowSo, got laid last nite (actually like 3 am this morning). Didn't get off. Didn't feel like sleeping at someone else's house, so came home, went to bed. Woke up at like 3 pm this afternoon, discovered the condom was still inside me! So now, I get to get up bright and early tomorrow morning, and drag my ass to the clinic for the morning after pill. And I can't fucking afford it! That's it, I give up on sex. Mood= just kill meVoices in my head are singing= Current Obsession= December 24, 2003 - 10:26 am Play, maybe sex, YAYSo, first off, Happy Holidays, whatever holidays it is you personally recognize and celebrate. Voices in my head are singing= 'we're gonna get some, we're gonna get some' Current Obsession= fun December 19, 2003 - 8:26 am PissedMy father is a fucking idiot. I got him to buy me MS Plus Digital Media Edition, cos I just got a digital camera, and Plus DME was $10 at staples. And I've explained to him any number of times that Microsoft now puts product activation on their stuff, so you can't install the same software with the same product number on more than one computer. I had the software delivered to my parent's house, cos that's the address associated with my father's staples account, so it was easier. It seems tho, that when the software arrived, he installed it over there. And even better, FORGOT TO PUT THE CD BACK IN THE BOX. So, he came over, and left me an empty cd box. (I was asleep at the time, after being up all day waiting for a fed ex package, cos I'd been up all the night before, and then FedEx called in the morning and said, o, we've got a package for you, it'll be delivered this afternoon. So I waited up til 7 pm, at which point I'd been awake 26 1/2 hours. FedEx never brought my package.) Voices in my head are singing= they are just pissed off and screaming at everyone Current Obsession= not killing anyone December 16, 2003 - 9:32 am CatchupPicked a domain. Have been working on getting my pages edited so they have the new domain, and been switching em to CSS while I was at it, and doing some updates I'd been meaning to do. O, hey, I learned CSS! Plus, I've been writing some! Mood= accomplishedVoices in my head are singing= Everclear-AM radio.mp3 Current Obsession= getting stuff done December 09, 2003 - 6:50 pm HelpSo I finally decided to take the plunge and get an actual website, instead of a free hosting one, in large part because this company 1and1.com is having a free 3 year hosting promo which is pretty sweet. So, now I need to pick a domain name for my new site. I can't decide between helmcgee, helenm, or helenmcgee. My friends all call me hel, but either of the ones with mcgee in it, if I give it out verbally, ppl could misspell it as macgee, and I don't want ppl misspelling my domain. And, helmcgee, what if a couple years from now no one is calling me hel anymore, I'd either be using something that didn't reflect who I am, or have to change it. So I'm kinda leaning towards helenm, but of the dozen friends I've asked, only one like helenm, the rest were pretty evenly split between helmcgee and helenmcgee. So I need some more opinions. Yeah, I'm indecisive conflicted girl. *frown* PLEASE leave a comment or a note and let me know which you prefer! Mood= indecisive and conflictedVoices in my head are singing= they curled up and aren't helping pick a domain Current Obsession= domain name! December 04, 2003 - 3:38 pm CatchupWas gonna talk about my digital camera, but already did that. It kicks ass tho. Voices in my head are singing= TMBG-Hope that I get old before I die (winamp) Current Obsession= |
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