10/17/99 - 2:32 am

I did a bad, bad thing. I called Harry, Sofija�s ex-boyfriend, and I told him about what she said he did. I did explain that she only said it because she felt like she needed something to counter what Chris had done while I was on the phone, but apparently that didn�t help, because Harry just got jealous of Chris. So I felt really badly. It wouldn�t have been a big deal if Harry weren�t such a freak. If it was something that was really going to bother Sofija, I wouldn�t have done it. We all know that. I don�t tell the Big stuff as a joke. I don�t tell the big stuff, or the stuff I promised not to tell, unless the friendship is actually over, or I have some other really good, real reason, not just because I�m pissed, or for a joke. Oh, and the very day that Jason told me his not so secret, I told Sofija, and I told Chris like a week later, but Jason said he kind of already knew I had. Seriously, I do not understand why any of these people are friends with me. With the bullshit I pull, I just don�t get it.